Today's in service helped me realize I lost sight of the big picture. Instead of seeing the "balcony view," which would've helped me to make sense of chaos, I let my limited view (of what I wanted to see) taint my understanding of the things I can control and influence.
CONTROL... I've ALLOWED myself to see negativity in recent experiences, instead of the opportunities for growth. Too long have I been dancing to the tune of mundane managerial demands, instead of enjoying the " overall experience". Although I always knew that perspective is of my control, I've allowed my lens to be clouded with doubt . I think it's time I wiped it....and start seeing the beauty around me; by taking images that will empower and inspire change by example.
INFLUENCE....being an Assistant Principal does not mean taking the back seat. Although it is important to maintain loyalty to your surperior, it is equally important to remember that YOU CAN influence others while respecting their role. Recently, I've chosen to wait for growth to spontaneously occur by position (the Principal), however all I accomplished was the reinforcement of adversarial work conditions. How can I expect my teachers to "buy in" when I sold out to a respect a position. Instead of taking the back seat, I should focus on seizing the opportunity to develop a "partnership" with whom ever my Principal may be. I need to model this by making a commitment to develop a productive relationship with my boss that will support equality, critical thought, discussion, and sound decision making.
Looks like it's time for me to go back to the drawing board. Now how do I do all of that while taking care of my son...addressing my educational goals....and exploring my newfound love? The Paradox that is my life...
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